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The Best Part of Being Sober

The Best Part of Being Sober

One Rude Little Awakening

A rude little awakening for me. Not a surprise, but an awakening to add to my list of recent awakenings. A year ago, I would've thought this was the best gift ever...

One Rude Little Awakening

Mastering the Day (one step at a time)

"You're not going to master the rest of your life in one day. Just relax. Master the day. Then just keep doing that every day."

Mastering the Day (one step at a time)

I Don't Want To Die Young

Addiction extinguishes the flame inside you. The one that sometimes burns brightly, and fuels everything of value: passion, creativity, drive, hope. I felt as though the fire inside me went out so long ago that all of those things went with it.

I Don't Want To Die Young

Song For Zula (Video)

See the cage, it called. I said, come on inI will not open myself up this way again Nor lay my face to the soil, nor my teeth to the sand I will not lay like this for days now upon end...

Song For Zula (Video)

The Dream Box: On Loss & Losing Grip

In 2012, I had found 'my calling'. I was helping people everywhere, using my god-given-talent and a lot of creativity. I was a philanthropist and I was changing lives around the world, making dreams come true. I was being featured on The Today Show. World News with Diane Sawyer. Here I am today, an alcoholic having dreams of losing my thumbs.

The Dream Box: On Loss & Losing Grip

The Dream Box: Reconnecting with my dead Dad

He smelled like the factory he worked at when I was a child. Like grease and coal. And he put his lips to the top of my head while I was still crying and said 'I forgive you. For most of it.'

The Dream Box: Reconnecting with my dead Dad