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I struggle to connect with so many people and things. Alcohol is the one thing that is always ready, willing and waiting for me. Ready to numb all my connectors so I don't have to think and I don't have to care. And music. Music is always there to try and bring me back to life, or to help me lose myself even more...
The Dream Box: On Loss & Losing Grip
In 2012, I had found 'my calling'. I was helping people everywhere, using my god-given-talent and a lot of creativity. I was a philanthropist and I was changing lives around the world, making dreams come true. I was being featured on The Today Show. World News with Diane Sawyer. Here I am today, an alcoholic having dreams of losing my thumbs.